Here are a few of Ken's journeys designed to improve his own spiritual health. One of the most powerful aspects of the ability to journey into the spirit world is the ability to check up on and help oneself! No matter how much we move toward total enlightnement, the fact remains we are all stuck living in our physical bodies, and therefore subject to all the mental and emotional baggage that comes with that. Nor are we immune from invasion by darker energies simply because we know they are there.
Even Jesus had his moment in the garden, despite his top level of enlightenment. The human ego does not go lightly into the night. So visiting the spirit world for your own needs is not only allowed but highly encouraged. Ken has done so numerous times to deal with various interfering energies of the past, present and future. He has met his Higher Self, met with many of his Helpers many times, and been given numerous spiritual tools for dealing with the inevitable stumbles along the path. :)
One can also get guidance for major or even minor decisions. The ability to ascertain the best next step in life from spirits who have the big picture, of both your own life and the lives of those around you, and of the entire world and universe, is priceless. One can make decisions knowing with total confidence that for that place and time, for that moment, they are the best ones to be made.
It is well established that we humans get into "loops" of thoughts-causing-emotions and then those emotions re-energizing those thoughts, over and over again, until these become part of our personality. We become the emotion, especialy when it is tied to an event that effecte dus and that we wil not forget.
CHECKING MY OWN SPIRIT HEALTH
4/16/08: A journey taken for myself, to see what has been going on with my
spirit health lately. For a couple of days in particular in the past week, I
have felt deserted and under attack by "darkness". At every turn, abandoned.
So
much aggravation and little "gotchas", telling me I was saturated with Hucha
(heavy, man-made dark energy) at the least, and with darkness from without at
the worst. So somehow events had evolved into this Wednesday evening where I
was given an hour and a half of free time, and I used it to perform 3 journeys,
this being one of them.
As I entered the Spirit World, I was standing on a large, rock slab next to a
mighty waterfall. But it was not water falling, but rainbow-colored spirit
energy. My extra soul and guardian/helper, AnnSinn, was standing nearby.
"Just look at yourself!" she said, gently but firmly chiding me.
I did, and
saw I was covered, head to foot, in a thick, black slime. "You did this to
YOURSELF!" she went on. "You let down your guard, weakened your aura, thought
toxically, and THIS is the result."
I then stepped into the waterfall for a cleansing. I felt absolutely fabulous
as large chunks of this grime began sloughing off of me. The chunks would
sizzle as they hit the ground and began to melt away. I felt how one feels on
a cold night, first stepping into that delightfully hot water of a shower.
When I was clean, I stepped out of the falls and onto my Dalha Mirror! They
were applauding. They then led me to a long table one would see at an
Expo...covered in white linen with neat piles of presentations.
There on the table were three piles. One was of high-denomination money bills;
the second was a replication of my skin healed of the vitiligo; and the last
was a thick stack of papers having to do with my high-functional foundation.
Three of the ten Dalha spirits came up, each a different color.
The purple Dalha picked up the
stack of bills and placed it into my heart, no doubt to overcome my lingering
resentment of the rich. The orange Dalha picked up my new skin and placed it
into my solar plexus chakra (the seat of one's current existence), no doubt to
make this return to normal skin coloring an integral part of my thinking and
being.
The final, green Dalha picked up the foundation stack and likewise
placed it in my center Chakra. All three of these vital issues in my earth
walk are now internalized!!!
AnnSinn then took me off the mirror and over to our river (see recent prior
journeys for our other visits here). We swam into the river together. All
our motions were in unison, as if we were one swimmer.
There was just purity of being,
no cover-ups, no attempts at being something else. And that is her purpose in
being with me to begin with...to make me one with both the male and female sides
of being. As we reached the center of the river I looked up to see a
gold-glowing eagle form on a tree branch overhanging us.
Eagle dropped me a
golden feather, which I grabbed and took into myself. Here I reference the
Robbie Robertson song, "Golden Feather": "When you find, a golden feather, it
means you'll never lose your way back home." I knew this was a powerful
message to me that such dark periods were no longer necessary or desirable.
AnnSinn and I then swam back and came out of the river. I then, at her
telepathic urging, pulled the three gifts the Dalha had placed in me out as
three balloons.
I released this and as they soared up into the starry sky, I
could see "hands", that is, distortions in the sky that took on the shape of
Hands, grabbing each Balloon and taking them into the Universe. I no KNEW that
all three of these requests are guaranteed to be answered.
There is no doubt,
for these requests have been visibly accepted by the universe, which always
delivers, as long as we allow it with our thoughts.
I then returned to my room, but the journey was not quite over. I lay there
asking all my helpers to further strengthen me, and I requested this over and
over for a few seconds.
Suddenly, my longtime protector, Two Feathers, snuck
in from the left and kissed me on the cheek. She no longer watches over me now
that AnnSinn is my protector, and is assigned to other "newbies."
As she
walked away with Gray Wolf, I felt such kinship with her, a oneness with all we
have been through together in the early years. I yelled to her, "We'll meet
again..." "I know," she smiled back. At this point, the journey ended.
WORKING WITH MY QUOSQO
1/11/08: A Journey taken to work with a new concept given by Joan Wilcox in
her book describing the Peruvian view of the energy body. The Quosqo is a belt
of energy just below the navel from which filaments of energy stream out (and
into which foreign filaments stream) in making connection with all other things
in existence.
Both light (Sami) and heavy (Hucha) energies flow through here.
One cleanses oneself of heavy energies in the aura through this portal. It is
described as having an eye that opens and constricts, and which can extend at
least an arm's length out or come in very close for protection. Joan gives a
series of exercises for untrained people to use to work with this spirit form,
but I knew journeying to work with it would save a lot of time.
As I entered spirit space, I first checked out my Quosqo. Sure enough, there
were millions of filaments radiating out into the universe. I viewed the
"eye" front section and saw a whirlpool of energy there, moving outward.
Surrounding this "eye" was a hoop of energy that was receiving from without, so
the two streams were flowing simultaneously in opposite directions adjacent to
one another. Picture a donut where the hole is the "outgoing" portal and the
donut itself the "incoming" ring.
I then began performing some of the connection exercises she recommends. I
first went out in search of my birth star(s). Peruvian shamans believe each
person has an assigned star, and once one connects with it, one can access all
the power of one's personal ancestry.
I sent my filaments out in search and
they quickly came to my star, Stars in this case. There are a pair of binary
stars circling each other beyond the upper-left bright star in the
Constellation Orion.
They are not visible, but are there. One is male, one is
female, and so my birth stars have given me already the sacred balance of the
two energies. This is no doubt why my feminine side has always been so well
developed, even when I was a child.
I then went out to visit the sun and moon. Most cultures believe the sun is
male energy, the moon female, but my Mongolian teachers believe otherwise,
saying the moon "hunts" at night like a male.
But I checked, and the sun told
me it was indeed male, and the moon said she was indeed female. They told me I
knew that already from prior journeys, and that the Mongolian construct was
"their construct of their reality" (and therefore equally valid).
I then, following Joan's prescription, met with the spirit of the small fir
tree behind the shed, which I have made my "terge tree", decorated with prayer
flags. Since it is winter, the tree spirit resides in its roots...I knew that
already from prior experience.
So I flipped myself upside-down and stood on
the ground to make it as if the roots came "up and out" like the canopy does
normally, and merged with the tree. I felt the sturdiness, the peace, the tree
has. Very still and firm. I tasted its pine sap a bit.
The terge tree then
suggested I visit my nearby epiphany tree. I did so, again going into the
roots. Here, merged with the tree spirit, I sensed an almost orangey taste in
my mouth.
I found that its "skin" (bark system) is almost delightfully itchy.
The tree told me that if I rub its bark, I will increase my power immensely in
that very short time, so I will do that once I resume going out to pray.
I then decided to perform a "heavy energy purge", called Hucha Micha. I sought
out and found the ball of heavy energy I had built up during the Christmas
season at work. I also saw right next to it my anger at the economic
imbalance in our society.
I set up the conveyor to run from this ball to a
stream running down from my Quosqo to the ground, to Mother Earth. The
Peruvians believe, like other cultures, that Mother Earth transmutes this energy
into good, light energy.
I saw the darker energy, brown and deep red, flowing
out of the ball into the Quosqo, then down the stream.
At the same time, as
recommended by Joan, I extracted the light, or Sami, energy mixed in with it
and sent that up to my crown chakra versus a second, opposing energy stream
running up my torso axis. As she had mentioned, this did cause a lightness in
my head. I ran this for about 30 seconds and will come back to it in the future. I can now
do this without journeying.
As an aside, I tried feeling my Quosqo with my hand last night and was
successful. There is indeed a warmer feeling just up from that part of the
navel. I extended it outward an arm's length successfully as well.
I then
sent a filament out to the little fir tree my wife got for Christmas which sit
on the other side of the room. Once we were connected, I heard it immediately
say, "I'm thirsty". So I got up an gave it a good drink of water.
The journey was now over.
A REBIRTH
4/11/07: A journey taken to check on my own spirit health now that I have
decided to
give up drinking alcohol. This decision came about after I realized how poorly
I was reacting to things with friends and family who were around on Easter Sunday. The
very next day I could see starkly that several scotches in the early afternoon
had worked in conjunction with exhaustion and further imbibing to produce this
"not me" response. I awoke Sunday night and Monday aghast at myself, and
resolved to end this once and for all.
As I entered the Spirit World, I was in an area with lush, green vines hanging
down all around me. Bees were buzzing very happily around me. I heard my name
being called and looked to my left to see all my spirit Gguides standing on my
Master Mongolian Shaman Mirror, which was floating on a river. The water surrounding
the mirror was dazzling with millions of little sun-reflections off the
tiny wavelets. As I walked down and joined them, they applauded me!
I wasn't on the mirror long...I quickly sank through into the water. I
was then a tiny baby in a womb, warm and totally at peace. I then saw light in
a tunnel above as I felt all the foreign energies in my entire being
circulating out of me and into the surrounding water. I then went up through
the tunnel (which I shortly thereafter realized had been a birth canal) and
back onto the mirror surface.
The Dalha Spirits then began passing me around, each with a smile as they
looked down on this new baby spirit boy. I finally ended up in the chief
Dalha's arms. He fed me mana through a bottle.
I then fell asleep and dreamed of all the "negative" excesses I had experienced
and caused in my life. I then saw the dusky field of my very first journey
while listening to the last song on the "Sacred Spirit I" CD. It was from this field
that I died to my spirit World and came here, while Two Feathers whispered
encouragement and farewell to me.
I then heard a voice say, "See? It has all been a dream." I then became
myself as a young man, full of strength and energy. I then shape-shifted into
a hawk, and flew through the universe at an incredible speed, dodging stars...and
then flew straight into a black hole (a feature in space where gravity is so
strong that neither light nor matter can escape). I found myself dissolve
totally in the violent pull of gravity. I came out by reversing time!
I then returned to a field where I found my wife, Janet, weeping over my grave!
Apparently I had died. I went up to the headstone and erased it from view.
Janet turned to me and gave me a huge hug, thankful for my return. Then the
children, the ages they were in 1992, came up and likewise welcomed me back.
The scene then shifted to our house, and I was standing before my granddaughter. who was
looking at me as if she were my teacher. I then infused the house with
purple/white spirit energy, and did likewise to my family, to protect them from
spirit-based and other harm. I then thanked my helpers as I left the mirror.
But instead of coming back, I saw before me an immense golden hawk, wings
outstretched. I heard a spirit voice say, "That's you!" The call back drumming then
sounded, ending the journey.
ONE OF MY "SHAMAN'S DEATH" JOURNEYS
(Note: Many shamanic traditions speak of the vital Importance of training
shamans going through their own "deaths" so they can come back to this life
with a more balanced view of their own "self-importance"...and no fear of death.
The willingness to
"die" (figuratively or literally) for a client is a vital part of the shaman
walk...as spoken and later demonstrated by figures such as Jesus and Mahatma
Ghandi).
3/2/04: I took a journey this morning, but for the first time with the intent
of allowing my teachers to choose which of two paths would be best for me to go
on. I had an equal pull in two directions, so I asked them to lead me to the
one most suitable for me at this point in my training.
Should I explore my
Black Panther Medicine further, or face my own death in full to strengthen my
shamanism. I began drumming after smudging the room. I quickly found myself
in a glass-enclosed tower.
A Bald Eagle came soaring right up to the glass in
front of me with talons and beak open, as if trying to get through to me. Was
it anger, or desperation? Was it to startle me into action? Am I still too
closed off from Eagle Medicine...is my nest still too low?
An interesting
beginning. (I subsequently discovered that this was my Power Animal attempting
to catch my attention as such.)
Suddenly, my first journey guide, snake (Crosses in Front), was at my feet,
urging me to follow him* down the grate in the floor, which I did. We went
down into a dark tunnel to the Lower World. He stood by me as all my clothes
fell off.
The surroundings were muddy, rocky and bathed in a very dark blue
light. I found myself now walking into an ice-cold stream, which hurt my feet
lot. Still I pushed forward, having decided by now that this journey was to be
about my death.
We moved up into a jungle area, where a figure dressed in all
black greeted me. As I walked up an incline, numerous bugs like green head flies
were attacking my all over, taking huge chunks of flesh from me. It was very
distracting and painful, as they were biting my face and head as well, but I
moved on nonetheless.
The attacks stopped as I reached a stone slab at a crest
of a hill overlooking a river far below to my left. I lay down as snake stood
and the black figure sat at a distance by me.
* I soon afterward discovered "he" was a "she."
I waited for night. When it arrived, I could see many lit tipis* and hand-held
torches around me, well down the hill and surrounding me. A Black Panther then
came out of the night and up to me, beckoning me to follow.
I did, and she led
me to a lit-in-yellow, straw-filled bed beneath a large number of leaf-less
bush branches that all had a soft white aura along their lengths. As we lay
down together, I became a Black Panther cub, with my mother beside me, offering
protection.
At this point, my daughter knocked on my door, and for the first
time I had to totally suspend a journey. I put medicine on her tattoo, and
when she left I went back to my journey.
Part of being a shaman is the ability
to be able to jump between worlds, so I knew this interruption was to be no
problem. I merely retraced my steps back to where I had left off, and was
fully involved once again.
*Much of my spirit training to this point was involved in Native American
reading, and so this was the easiest image for the helpers to use.
Then, some humanoid figures came to the straw bed where we were lying, and
attacked and killed the large panther at my side with long spears. But they
kidnapped me, wrapping me in a blanket and carrying me through the jungle.
I took a canoe trip as well, as I could hear and feel the water. When the trip
was over, I was released from my blanket and placed in an arena with a high
cliff overlooking it.
There were several tigers stalking at the other
end...obviously meant for me. I was a human, and naked, once again. My spirit
guides were all along the ridge of the cliff, watching me. In a new twist,
though, my immediate family was along the fence, pleading with me not to go
through with this.
My wife was crying to me to the extreme, and my son was yelling at me not to do
this. My daughter was sobbing, and my granddaughter was calling to me. I
found myself filling with tears and felt an intense longing to go back to them.
I was soon taken into a cave to sit alone, but their voices came through holes
in the wall, pleading with me. My granddaughter snuck in and was walking
toward me, but a figure came and snatched her away. I was going berserk with
confusion.
I was crying, full of doubt about what to do. I had never felt
panic like this in a journey. My breathing was fast. I believe a Power Animal
came in to walk by me for a few seconds, but I can't recall which...probably
squirrel or woodchuck...a smaller being, for sure.
I felt such an intense
longing to just be with my family, but felt by making that choice I would be
giving up all the progress I had made so far. I would have to go back to being
the old me, the person I was before I began the spirit/nature walk I am now on.
I spoke to myself, and told myself I was only destroying the weak and older
parts of that "old" me, that by going through this date with the tigers that I
would emerge an even better person for my wife and children.
I wanted so badly
for them to understand that I had to do this so I could be a more effective
love and healer for them...but all I heard were their cries and begging. I
filled my heart with love and intent, and determined I would return to them
from this event...but had to go through it.
tLove would carry me through. I
went out to face the Tigers, and offered them no resistance. One tore into my
right chest, the other engulfed my head. It was a very short time before I
found myself hovering over my torn and bloody body.
One of the tigers looked
up at me and grinned wildly, and told me, "You can never go back." I did not
feel that way, and insisted to myself that I would (NOTE: THIS IS A VITAL
LESSON IN JOURNEYING. DO NOT ACCEPT ANY ATTACKS ON YOU AT FACE VALUE. YOUR
INTENT IS THE MASTER, THE KEY TO OVERCOMING).
The only reason I went through
this was so I COULD go back and be a better S\shaman. Two of my spirit guides
appeared, and also told me I had made my choice and could not go back. I
insisted I be allowed to return.
They then took my spirit to a cave, where I
was fed a red vegetable-like glop with purple and green specks. Who knows what
it was.
But after eating, I found myself along in a cocoon made of rainbow light.
Before me, on my visual cortex, was the clear image of a lion. He began to
extract thin black spears from my spirit robe, one by one.
The cocoon then
closed in on me, and I felt myself rushing back to my room. I drummed myself
back and took in Mother Earth's energy. I was shaken and nervous from this
Journey, but felt I had accomplished a cleansing and a new commitment to the
path.
Believe me, listening to my wife begging me filled me with remorse and
doubt and longing...but I knew it was for her benefit that I had to go through
the tiger mauling. Typing this several hours later, I feel a new calm and
belonging, a new oneness with life.
I have some things left to interpret, such
as eagle flying at me to begin with (see note above), the death of the mother
panther, the meaning of the glop I was fed, which Power Animal came to
strengthen me...but it was obvious the Shamanic Death Journey was the more
important of the two options I placed before my guides, and I had chosen
correctly.
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