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Here are a few of my Blogs, posted to various sites over the past years...(9/6/19 trying to fix the alignment and character trouble)

Hi, folks. Here are some of my recent observations...
  • Shamanic compensation
  • Essay to my son
  • The wonders of water
  • The fear of death



    BLOG: Shamanic Services Compensation.



    I began my shamanic walk in the late summer of 2000. In October of 2001, I received what was to become my formal calling into shamanic practice, although I did not know it at the time. When I "called in" a Hawk to stare at me from a tree right next to me, through smoking my prayer pipe, I knew this was a shamanic event.

    I continued my studies and prayers, and in spring of 2004 began my public ministry, finally fully realizing only then, that I had become a shamanic practitioner. At that time, I even allowed myself the ego-luxury of calling myself a shaman, a practice I have only very recently overcome.

    At first, I felt so honored to have been chosen that I was insistent I should never be compensated for my work with others. If they wished to gift me, I would humbly accept it on behalf of my Helper Spirits, who had actually done most of the work. I resisted all suggestions by family and friends that I charge for these services.

    When I got deeply into Mongolian Shamanism, however, I began to learn that certain shamanic cultures insisted the shaman be compensated for his or her works. It was considered dishonoring the work of the spirits to walk away from the shaman and give nothing in thanks. Beyond that, what good was a sickly, weak shaman who could not afford to eat? But still I resisted, mainly because I then had, and still have, a fairly well-paying job. I am not currently hurting for food or shelter or some of the modern "toys".

    Here is the link that discusses the official Mongolian shamanic point of view on compensation:     Shamans Do Not Charge Fees

    And here is a quote from the end of the discussion on charging at the above site: "How fair would it be to the shaman and his/her family if they sacrificed all their time to the community and then starved because they had no time to hunt or herd? The spirits that serve the shamans are often demanding. For their service, it is right to compensate them."

    I have deviated from this guidance slightly in that I do have specific suggested rates for certain non-healing services. And being a shamanic specialist is not m full-time occupation. The bottom line from this site, though, is that a compensatory gift honors the helping spirits and their work...not the shaman. More on this later in the blog.

    A client-turned-friend of mine suggested a few years back that I start a foundation, incorporate books, videos, lectures, gatherings, lessons, etc., for the people who would come to me. I thought and still think, even though I am nearly 60, that this is a fine idea. I have picked my name...Shamanic Northeast...and built my web site.

    I have two people in my life that I rely on very much for advice in this venture, as in all others: my wife and the younger of my two sisters. Both these very highly intelligent, caring and giving people insist I should get compensated for my works. After all, how does one build a foundation with no income? How does the client value a free service?

    One could always solicit charitable contributions to fund the foundation, and I will, but how many westerners are breathing heavily to contribute to the spread of shamanism? So I finally relented recently, and agreed to begin asking for gifts for my works. My wife will (gladly) be my intermediary in the exchange, as I am still uncomfortable asking directly myself. I am conflicted in this: part of me does not want to insist on a gift, part of me does.

    Another issue is my age and financial status. I am nearing the end of my good-earning years, and we have little saved up for retirement. I would much rather spend my last 20 years involved in healing and teaching, than in continuing to deliver mail during brutal long day after another. But to do this requires I have a steady flow of income.

    So on my site, I tell people I will never turn them away for lack of payment, but would expect them to honor my and the Spirits' works with some sort of contribution. I see nothing wrong with this. I spend considerable time away from doing other things that I might do for my family and dwelling helping people in my shaman work, and it would be nice for my wife and family to see some benefit to them as well as to our clients.

    Now, having said all this, let me also relate that I have been working very hard to subsume my ego. Most Buddhist, Christ-based, Tao-based, etc., teachings all insist the ego and the corresponding emotions and judgments be tamed completely in order to walk in peace. But for the next few paragraphs, I am going to use my ego to lay out a few things that have been a bit troubling to me.

    I have found it somewhat disheartening that I have finally had to stop using the name that the Native American spirits who first came to help me gave to me upon my calling: Four Hawks. Because I am not Native American, using this name in public subjects me to occasional rebuke at the hands of Native Americans (who apparently have no interest in or knowledge of their own spiritual traditions. They refuse to honor the work of their own spirit ancestors!).

    Instead of celebrating that a non-Native has been accepted fully by a portion of the Native American spirit family and been allowed to work very effectively with them, they accuse me of ripping off their culture to make a quick buck. I have made so little in the past seven years it is almost laughable...yet I am a rip-off artist? The people who have healed working with me do not think so. They have rightly been grateful for and honored the work of the spirits.

    The other issue is the concept that any shaman who asks for compensation is a "New Age sham", a fake who is only in it to enrich him or herself. There are no doubt some people trying to take advantage of others who are desperately seeking help, and I condemn such approaches. I can only speak for myself. My desire to help and induce healing has been 100 percent genuine and based in love.

    So I am going to continue to ask for contributions, even though I am still uncomfortable with doing so, so that my works can grow, and I can reach more people. So I can support my wife and myself in our old age with this incredible gift I have been given. Why do we accept that people with athletic, musical or acting gifts can earn millions of dollars, when someone with a gift for healing should be excoriated for seeking very modest gifting?

    I have helped hundreds of people in my shamanic walk and so far have made next to nothing doing it. As someone recently wrote, the sheer joy of knowing one was involved in a stupendous healing is priceless anyway.

    But shamans still have to eat.

    BLOG: First of many Letters to my Son



    7/3/10: This Essay was written in response to a beautiful essay written by my son.

    "Hi, my son. This is in response to your wonderful essay on capture and escape. The line you chose as the basis for your work, "What we wish to capture, will escape us", sounds very much like it is straight out of the Tao De Ching. It speaks to the KNOWING (not merely believing) among Spirit Masters that the "Universe" already knows exactly what is right for you at any given moment.

    You are always in the right place at the right time,, for there is nowhere else you can be but where you are! Therefore, these Masters always recommend NOT wishing to capture anything! The flip side of this sentence is the famous adage, "What you resist, persists." In both cases, you notice that because you are actively interfering with the situation, through "wishing" or "resisting", you keep what is supposed to be happening, from happening.

    We will come back to this in a sec. I want to keep this short, a tough challenge for your Dad indeed! :) Let us look at how life is really set up, in a short distillation of age-old teachings married to some of today's. The newest approaches to existence in quantum physics (approaches that have been proven mathematically to account for all the energy and matter within and outside our current universe. They are therefore likely to be valid) suggest that at the center of every single particle, star, galaxy...any- and everything...is what is called a "Singularity".

    This is a well known concept, and simply means that in this "Point" (i.e., the Singularity), all laws of time and space completely break down, and what is inside is currently "unknowable" by physicists.

    This is where we get into the realm of the Spirit Masters. They (and I, of course) KNOW what is inside the Singularity: it is consciousness! Not just your consciousness, but the very Consciousness behind all things. So the key to remember here is this simple truth: "God" or "Great Mystery" or "The Source" is THE Conscious Awareness, comprised completely of unconditional love, peace and joy...and it is at the center of every piece of matter, every strand of energy. And this awareness creates all of this matter and energy...it is the Source!

    In order to experience everything in what can be called the "game of life", the "God" Consciousness introduces what is known as the Yin Yang, or Duality..basically speaking, light and dark, good and bad, etc. In other words, "God" creates the universe to have all sorts of conflict and challenge, as well as love and giving, in it, to allow for every sort of event and situation to happen.

    This awareness THEN creates the life forms it can temporarily inhabit (people, plants, animals) so it can exist simultaneously INSIDE and OUTSIDE the game! Brilliant, and quite amusing, really. It is like the owner coming out of the plush box above the field to play in the game...but to play as both teams and the refs as well! LOL!

    The world we see is, in reality, a hologram, that is, a 3-D projection in and by our brains. There is vastly more energy passing by and through us that we do not see or feel. We see just a small, manageable chunk so we do not get overwhelmed. But the ego-mind is tied very intently to this illusion of space and time.

    Hence, it is hard to break out of the ego's traps of wanting and needing, comparing and competing, and judging. That, though, is the goal of enlightenment. Aborigines call our earthly life the "dream", and consider nocturnal dreaming the reality. Our lives are so visually and sensually compelling, however, it makes the dream seem real!

    Time is the biggest illusion of all. Think of a movie. It is in reality a series of still, motionless pictures, strung together and played at a fast enough rate to make the brain interpret the passing stills as motion and time. The universe is the same way. It re-creates itself entirely in a never-ending series of versions that, strung together, our brains interpret as time, motion and change.

    With each new version of itself, the Universe tries to bring everything closer to perfection, and so there are changes...some large, some very small...but everything is changing. But realize: there is never a past, never a future: the past Universe is gone, and the future universe yet to be created...so there is only the now. I will speak below about the power this constant rebirthing of the universe give us in the now.

    The most important concept coming out of this takes us to the Tao. Because everything, including you, your ego, your mind, thoughts, and emotions, your life circumstance, the world, the visible Universe...COMES FROM LOVE, it is vital to KNOW it that way! In other words, what we in our ego-minds would consider the worst possible outcome is actually a huge gift of love.

    Buddha has boiled it all down to one sentence: enlightenment is the end of suffering. What is suffering? It is not having what you wish for, or put another way, resisting what is! So how do we alleviate suffering? Through acceptance without judgment; loving all things equally, without favorites, without resistance to what is.

    So, you find peace in your life by accepting everything as it is and loving it for its gifts to you. Easily said, hard to do, but the goal of all spiritual practices! Now, what to do about the part of you that resists this with all its might...your mind and emotions (i.e., the ego)? These are likewise gifts of Love. BUT IT IS CRITICAL TO REALIZE YOUR MIND AND YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS ARE NOT THE SAME!

    The former is temporary, the latter eternal. Likewise, it is vital to know that your ego-mind is NOT you...it is the voice in the head, a separate entity with a life vision and plans of its own. It WILL work against you and destroy you if it has to. But it is meant to be merely a tool. An analogy I have developed is this: consider yourself a tree in a misty glade: the True You is the tree, and your emotions and thoughts are the mist.

    We have been given the power to think, to reason, to analyze, to plan, to act, etc, and we of course have to use these gifts every day! But who you really are, the True You, is the "God" consciousness within you! The mind is a tool that contains and compartmentalizes all the experiences and beliefs we have had or been given since birth. It is to be used to establish patterns, so we can recognize what is going on in our life and be able to say, "Oh, I have been through this before...I know what it means and how I might act." But it is meant to be this tool for organizing and predicting patterns, not to be the driver of your life!

    So, how do we square the circle of "accepting everything as it is" and then having to act on everything in our daily Life? This comes to the center of the little essay I am writing for you now. This is vital: BECAUSE YOU HAVE BILLIONS OF SINGULARITIES INSIDE YOU, EACH CONNECTED DIRECTLY TO "GOD", YOU ALREADY KNOW EVERYTHING THERE IS TO KNOW, including the "reason" for everything!

    YOU ARE THE CO-CREATOR OF EVERYTHING AROUND YOU, so you already know what is best to do or say, or not. Therefore, when you act on something, you understand that ultimately YOU created it out of love, and all your actions should be centered in this loving consciousness, and NOT in your ego-mind. Remember: the ego lives for itself, and is basically a survival mechanism built into us.

    But it likewise has a dual nature. It is just as willing to lead you to the deepest depressions and well as the highest elations...as long as it remains in control of you. It is recognizing the ego's game and overcoming it that leads you to the end of suffering.

    I said I would speak about the power we have, given the constant rebirthing of the universe. Since you have the creator consciousness within you, YOU play a role in how each new slice of the universe looks, through your beliefs and intentions. This is why some people always have "bad luck". They create it!

    So knowing this, you must always be broadcasting love and acceptance, so that the next slice of the Universe around you is created to be something that you love and accept. This is the great secret of success..."expect what you project!" But the love you broadcast has to be based in the True You, the love of acceptance, not your ego-mind, which is the greedy, "pretend" love.

    So, to sum it up, you are basically an outcropping of perfect love. But you have been deliberately placed in a world where there are opposing forces, and love is anything BUT perfect. Moreover, coming here, you were made to forget that you knew everything there is to know and helped create this world to begin with.

    The trick of life is to remember this, and so to re-discover your eternal being, your unconditional love, and your ability to help change things for the better, often by doing and saying nothing. For the ultimate goal of this game we call the Universe is to go from chaos, disorder and hate all the way back to pure love and joy.

    In other words, the universe is always trying to become perfect love once again...to return to where it came from. You are a key player in this, and all you have to do, as they say in Tao, is "recycle Tao (the love)." To recap that, everything, everyone and every event in your life...including YOU...is a gift of love to you (that is, the True You), no matter how the ego judges it. All you have to do is love everything back, unconditionally, and you are basically back to being the perfect being you were prior to coming here. J

    One last comment on the power of our intentions. Drug tests by major companies show that often the "placebo effect" (the power of belief that the sugar pill the person took was instead the real drug) often BEATS the real drug. So our heartfelt intentions DO allow us to alter our own reality, and sometimes all of reality.

    This is the "free will" gift we have been given...the will to influence the universal plan. While this is a great tool to have, Masters suggest we use it VERY sparingly. Shamans ask permission, via journeys into the spirit world, and through divinations, from the Spirit Masters to make sure their intentions are in accord with the perfection of the universe in other people's lives. In other words, if you are not sure what you are doing, you should not do it.

    A few words on relationships, before I close. A relationship based on the unconditional love of the conscious awareness of the True You, mentioned above, will be vastly different from one based on the needs of the ego. We have covered this already, and you have already figured this out in your final lines, saying "set what you love free...what you love should be free, free to roam, learn, love, laugh and live. So am I!!'

    In perfect enlightenment, you realize that your friend is really you, both coming from the same Source, and your being together was and is a great gift of love from the universe. Take your ego-wishes out of the picture, and you see that this "time" in your life was and is a grand expansion of your heart-gifts and your maturity. IT was a gift from the universe to move you closer to perfection, and it has worked.

    The Love that emerges from a centered existence (unconditional love) loves everything equally, and so has no need to possess anything. Each person is totally free to develop and walk their own path. You KNOW that whatever unfolds, it is the Universe trying to perfect the two of you, as well as everyone and everything around you. Now keep in mind that not everyone knows this. Few do, actually.

    So they keep on making ego-based decisions for themselves and ending up in temporary happiness, followed by misery in a never-ending cycle. This happens mainly because, in the ego state, you have a false impression of who you are, and likewise a false impression of who your love interest is, and vice versa. So, most relationships are built on at least four, usually false, mental impressions. And both misinformed egos are fighting for dominance over the other! No wonder drama, "highs" and "lows", pain and betrayal are the result of the "best" relationships.

    Did you react in anger? That is ego love, not real love. Did you feel neglected or betrayed? That is ego love, not real love. Did you expect the other person to understand, or protect, or be grateful to you? That is ego love, not real love. Did you expect support for your projects or plans? That is ego love, not real love.

    Did you project a loving relationship with children and long life together? That is ego love, not real love. Did you expect the other to appreciate you and your gifts and actions? That is ego love, not real love. REAL love is acceptance of things as they are...in the now. Past and future are non-existent, and reflect a mental/emotional fiction that passes as love... in unconditional love, THERE IS NO "OTHER"! ALL ARE ONE!

    Even if you become enlightened enough to know this about yourself, it is not your job to correct this in others, for this misunderstanding may well be the perfect unfolding of the Universe as well. This is why Shamans do not force themselves on anyone. You can only be the light yourself, and hope that as you shine, others are healed by it. We have no right to interfere without permission.

    One final contribution, from your birth mother: she adds that "if you help yourself, others will help you." As you can see, this is another version of the way the Universe works. Helping yourself basically means loving and accepting yourself as perfect in the present moment. Once you do this, you attract other people and circumstances that reflect that...and your life unfolds like a perfect flower, without you having to DO (ego-mind) anything, while you are DOING (acting out of perfect love) everything! J"

    BLOG: The Wonders of Water



    On a recent Coast to Coast AM Show, Dr. David Sereda spent several Hours explaining the latest hi-tech research into the properties of water. Most of you will not have heard a thing about this research or its results, since it challenges the Western view of life in which mankind is the only living entity truly worth exalting...the rest being here for our enjoyment and exploitation.

    Here is a brief summary of what has been demonstrated. water changes its crystalline structure based on the types of frequencies it comes in contact with. It has been shown that harmonic music, for example, changes the crystal architecture into one of similar, ordered beauty, while discordant music does the opposite.

    It has been shown that the "song" of the Sun, inaudible to our ears but nonetheless captured and transcribed for our ears by NASA, changes water into its most gorgeous crystal state: a snow-flake-looking hexagon with precise 12- and 24- based lattice work.

    Further, it has been conclusively shown that water reacts instantly to events that are great distances away. For example, bacteria floating in water react to solar flares the instant the latter occur, with that Information jumping across the 93 million miles immediately. It has likewise been shown that the human brain can send signals across half the world instantly as well. All of this is tied to the ability of water to record and transmit information outside the time/space restrictions of Einsteinian physics.

    It seems very likely now, and I have had this confirmed by my Helpers, that not only water but all of matter and energy has, retains and can carry/transmit consciousness. It is just that water is really the best vehicle due to its unique structure (the H-O-H Bond that causes it to become lighter when frozen, or denser, for example). It is very likely that the high state of human consciousness, and our intuitive sense, are due in large part to our high concentration of water in our bodies.

    It has been known for decades that thinking good thoughts toward a plant will help it expand and grow, while thinking bad thoughts to another plant, all others things being equal, will cause it to die. This is because the water in the plants takes on the appropriate crystalline structure corresponding to the emotions involved, which actually become an elixir in one case and a poison on the other.

    Since the human body is 75-90 percent water, we likewise are subject to this same effect...hence, living in a toxic emotional environment often leads to Illness and depression, if the individual is not enlightened enough to be able to dismiss it. Some people have had great success, for example, drinking water treated by the song of the sun, as this water immediately transfers its beauty to the water in the body. This same effect can be seen in the workings of sacred fountains, streams, and even holy water, according to Dr. Sereda.

    What all this is leading to is my own experience with water. I have had two very dramatic results tied to the use of water as the transmitting mechanism for effective prayer, that is to say, intended thought. It is well known that thought tied to emotion, that is, the "heart-felt prayer" can be extremely effective if powerful enough. I have discovered quite by accident in my own experience that praying while IN water, in my case, in the shower, multiplies the effect of the prayer even more. Here are two examples:

    Example 1. Early in my career, I was tasked in a journey to "fly" over to a client for two weeks, once a day, and place a single leaf of sage in a headband around her head (all of this spiritually-based), to finish a healing I had performed for her. Since I was crunched for time, I developed the habit of taking a few moments while in my morning shower to perform this action.

    This time is when we are often at our most relaxed. My client wrote about a week into this regime to tell me she had awoken to find a huge Hawk staring her right in her eyes. She insists she was wide awake and the Hawk was real. She asked if I had anything to do with it, and I of course explained in amazement at the time that she had actually seen me performing the ritual ordered up by my Helpers.

    I didn't really make the connection to water until just recently, late last year, almost 6 years later.

    Example 2. My Wife had been suffering with severe TMJ for months, and had seen specialists and dentists to the tune of thousands of dollars, and no matter what was done, it seemed to just be getting worse. So one morning, in that what have we got to lose mode we humans often get into when our greatest discoveries are hatching, I decided, while in the shower, to pray and work a huge amount of healing Spirit Energy into the jaw joint that was worst.

    I got the surprise of my life later that day when my wife told me that her jaw had suddenly, and without cause, simply "snapped back into place", and was feeling and behaving near normally, in terms of lack of pain and mobility. Once again in excited amazement, I told her what I had done that morning. And then I recalled the Incident related above, and then in about the same time heard the show on water with Dr. Sereda, and had my "Ah-ha!Moment.

    It all came together, and I realized I had stumbled upon, for me at least, this great healing technique...send the healing energy while wet!

    Since then I have not had occasion to use this for anything as dramatic, but I now regularly send out prayers for specific people while in the shower, knowing the power of water to absorb and transmit conscious Intent will greatly strengthen my work.



    BLOG: The Fear of Death

    Of all of the emotions that run through a human being's existence, the baseline of them all is the fear of death. This fear is generated by and in the Ego-Mind, for this portion of our mental existence knows from the start that it has a finite existence.

    This Knowing is encoded in the ego's very creation, and is inescapable, no matter how much any one person tries to bury it. This is why Shamans in training MUST go through several versions of their coming physical demise, either in rituals such as a vision quest, or through journeying into the Spirit World, in order to completely overcome that fear.

    For at the spirit level of existence, where the eternal You is, there is the reverse Knowing....that we are all eternal beings that live from lifetime to lifetime, and never lose our spiritual self.

    The "Shaman's Death" training is designed to put one in touch with this Knowing, for it is only when a Shaman has no fear of death that he or she can then fight for others when they are facing horrific darkness or even death themselves.

    The Fear, as I shall now refer to it, causes all sorts of distortions in human thinking and behavior. Because it is rooted in the Ego Mind, which is constantly trying to remain in control and overpower all in its sights, this fear often translates into action that result in the brutalizing of a single person, all the way up to the actual deaths of millions of people.

    This can occur either through deliberate starvation, war, chemical poisoning, etc. In "modern" or "western" cultures in particular, where spirituality has been diminished to near non-existence and replaced with a corporate, money-based religiosity, the Ego-Mind runs rampant and is encouraged through lifelong exposure to media and schooling to continue to do so.

    People see life as a one-off, the "only time around", the "one life to live." This immediately forces people into one of two modes, or a blending thereof: A hell-bent desire to dominate all and accumulate everything, or a passive submission to life and an embrace of "inevitable" failure. Neither of these positions is good for the individual or the society, and yet they rule today.

    In shamanic teaching and work, the eternal Spirit is constantly underpinning decisions and actions. Shamans try to bring it to the fore, in fact, as much as possible.

    It is very hard in our culture to abandon the Ego-Mind totally, for one is quickly judged an Idiot or worse by those who currently are trapped in their egos exclusively. But by referring all matters to spirit while also trying to keep ego impulses in check, the Shaman walks the line between life (the Eternal You) and death (the Ego-You).

    This is why it is vital that humanity undergo a dramatic shift away from the ego state and into a re-recognition of Spirit as the basis of all existence, if we are to escape the cycle of ever-increasing war and weaponry, jealousy and hate, crime and loneliness...even the shameless abuse of workers by their bosses AND their co-workers.

    Obviously, no one Shaman, or anyone else who works in the Spirit Realms, can change the entire world. We can only bring the truth to one or two people at a time, and only as they allow.

    To me, the shamanic journey is the most effective way of accessing the Spirit World, so one can see for oneself what it is really all about. Then, once you have met some of your spirit guides and verified that what you are experiencing in the journey is the truth, you are transformed.

    The writings of the major spiritual figures of the past, such as Jesus, Buddha, etc., take on powerful new meanings, and one can see how they have been subsequently bastardized into somehow supporting a business model of great wealth and power, when these figures were absolutely against such things, and actually trying to free People FROM them.

    One can see, once one is firmly tied to Spirit, how dark energies manifest as illnesses....how thinking tied to emotion drives creation daily, and has ever since the universe was formed...how consciousness ultimately manifests into Spirit and therefore exists in EVERYthing...and how ANYthing is possible in the realm of matter, energy and time (as these are illusions, creations of spirit for our benefit), including parallel universes and beings from other dimensions.

    So it is vital that each and every person, however they can, dig way down to their core and recognize their Eternal Selves, and also understand that the mind is a blessed tool to be used for spiritual furtherance, not for dominance of people, places and even time.

    Look to Nature for this lesson...in all there is balance, and whenever anything takes a dominant role, something else eventually comes along to knock it back.

    The death of the physical body is meaningless in the spirit realm, other than it is a return to where you began, carrying a new set of lessons either learned or unlearned.

    I have witnessed my own death a number of times, as well as having come close to actually dying in my work for others.

    I have been to the spirit realm where we exists simply as awareness, and seen that we do indeed retain an individuality even amidst the oneness of eternity of spirit.

    This spiritual individuality, and not the Ego-based one we use in this life, is the ONLY one that should matter to us. How sad and dangerous for all life on earth that so few people know this.



    BLOG: A Paranormal Opening to the New Year



    This is one for the books. It was around 7:30 PM on 1/3/09, the Saturday evening of the New Year's four-day weekend. Hardly an evening for any sort of roadwork to be occurring on a small side street in a small town.

    I had gone out to move my wife's car off the street. She had parked it there earlier since our driveway was blocked when she got home. We are not allowed to street park overnight in the winter. I had just gotten to the car, which was facing east and uphill, further up our street, when I noticed the power lines over the little crest of the road and beyond were lighting up, as if a car was coming.

    But the tint of the light was strange. Not the usual yellow light of a head lamp, but the kind one would expect from the newer halogens with the bluish tinting. I also thought, "Krieg lights?"

    But something was odd here as well. The light was not steady. It was flickering. I began to think someone was welding something over the ridge, as the flickering was quite variable and attention-getting. If you have ever seen the light sprays of an active welding, you would know what I mean: the extreme and very quick variations in intensity.

    But then the light steadied, and got much brighter. So bright the entire area from the crest upward was saturated with this blue-white light. The wires above were shining brightly, like strings of light. I thought, "Ah, it must be a vehicle after all..."

    But then rationality was challenged yet again by the fact that there was SO much light it had to be one hell of a vehicle! Or was it perhaps three or four?! "What would cause THAT much light?" I asked myself.

    Then, emerging from the center of the road, with all this bright light behind it, was a vertically-oriented, black and thinly-outlined rectangle. It was moving slowly vertically, as if something were heading toward me. The shape reminded me of a backhoe cab...

    As the rectangle rose higher, I spotted within it the silhouette of a single human, looking exactly like a gun target silhouette...all black, no obvious clothes or hat...just head and shoulders and torso, arms by the sides. Just as I was about to convince myself that it was indeed some sort of work vehicle with amazing lights, this rectangle reversed direction INSTANTLY and went back down into the ground at the same speed as it has risen.

    The lack of a pause was really strange, as it was as if the reversal had happened without a gear shift. If this were indeed a vehicle, it had made it part of the way up this very shallow sloped hill and then sputtered out and gone back down.

    The rectangle was gone, and within a few seconds, the extremely bright light flickered twice and all was dark. There had been no noise at all the whole time, on a very cold and still crispy night...when sounds travel easily. I stared a few seconds, a bit dumbfounded and a bit uneasy...as what I had seen was singular.

    I had never witnessed anything like it. While all the individual elements were things I had seen, never had this much light and such a strange presentation behaving so strangely appeared to me. This combination was unique. I finally pulled the car in, after first debating whether or not to go up and see what the heck that really WAS.

    But I was actually intimidated by its weirdness to the point where I felt I might be intruding on something I should not be...my humanity took over and I was somewhat skittish about going up into that area. I now of course wish I had.

    I write this on the 6th, 3 days later. As time has passed since this event, and I have had more time to reflect on it, it seems more and more unearthly to me. Nothing about it was really normal. The light was strange, as were the lack of noise, the rectangle with the sole silhouette riding and falling like some sort of arcade figure...and the sudden ending.

    I believe I either witnessed a Spirit appearing to send me a message, which is very possible, or I was seeing a trans-dimensional energy intrusion... Since my shamanically sensitive senses and beliefs are so far broken out now from typical western training, beliefs, and interpretive blockages, I am much more open to this sort of event.

    It would not surprise me that I was the only one who might have seen this. I shall journey at some point to discover just what this was...a very different earthly construction interlude? Or a visit from elsewhere, deliberately done to get my attention....and how!

    1/21 UPDATE: I was listening to Coast to Coast AM today to an interview with one David Wilcock, who has unearthed some very interesting data concerning the Philadelphia Experiment of mid 20th century. One can read the full discussion at his site at http://www.divinecosmos.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=337&Itemid=30.

    In a nutshell, though, the Navy discovered in the middle of the last century that high-intensity arc-welding was causing worm-holes into other dimensions to open and close...and tools were disappearing from the rooms where this welding was occurring! These disappearances were caught on high-speed film. What was so striking to me today is that this is exactly how I categorized the beginning of my event is this blog: as a high-intensity flickering characteristic of arc-welding!

    This adds MUCH more weight to my assertion that what I saw that night was indeed a trans-dimensional portal opening...the same kind of energies that caused tools to disappear decades ago caused this rectangular shape with the human form with to appear to me. Of this I now have no doubt. Moreover, having witnessed this event, I can also verify that without doubt the accounts on the web site given above are no doubt true. So much has been hidden from us...



    BLOG: Is this Blogger ex-Catholic anti-Catholic?



    NOTE: If you are comfortable in your organized religious faith and services, I would kindly suggest you avoid reading this particular blog. I am not out to weaken anyone's faith or anger them. What follows is my own take on organized religion, and it's really only designed for those who are seeking more, who are discontent with their current religious practice.

    Am I, a former Catholic, anti-Catholic now? I guess this depends on how I view it. Until a recent chat with a client and also dear friend, I would have said that Shamanism has opened my Mind SO much to the realities of spirit and love that I am indeed anti-ANY organized religion. Basically, I am. But they do serve a purpose, as she reminded me.

    My Friend reminded me how moving and spiritually awakening the Catholic service, especially in my early days, could be and was. I remember the awe I felt sitting in a church, thinking that the spirit of Jesus was REALLY in that candle flame inside the red glass. I loved the smell of Incense and the bells. I was so enamored, in Fact, that I seriously considered becoming a priest.

    As a first step, I became an Altar Boy, and saw the politics and business side of the Church from inside the sanctuary. I saw how nuns were considered lower forms of servant, if you will. I saw how some priests could take all the magic OUT of the ritual with their mundane, matter-of-fact approach. I learned that many of the most powerful stories in the faith were either made-up, or mis-represented.

    Two man-made laws (go to mass every Sunday or go to hell, and no attending any other services, even a brother's wedding) came to have a profoundly negative effect on my view of the Church...this is the Church of forgiveness and love? So I never became a priest.. But I still had that magic inside. As my friend had reminded me, at least the Catholic Service had awakened the Spirit Fire within.

    Years later I visited the Vatican. This was about 10 years before I would assume my Shaman Path. As we got closer, my back began to throb. While within the confines of the Vatican itself, and their Museum FULL of priceless artifacts, I was in excrutiating pain. Amazingly, as we finally left and were on our way back to our hotel, the pain subsided.

    I wondered if I had been seen as a dark force, and the building was literally punishing me for being there. Once I got on the path of light as Shaman ten years on, though, I realized that it was the dark forces of the Vatican that recognized me as a Light Being and were coming against me. I had been afflicted with "satanic" energies right there in the "House of Peter." (Those of you who now are thinking I have this backwards...that I was the satanic presence...open your minds and think again. See my paragraph below on having met and worked with Jesus on behalf of clients)

    I hope no-one is too offended by this. I see the multi-billion dollar Vatican state as having morphed over the centuries into primarily a force for control, manipulation and levelling of the human condition, despite all the words to the contrary. Note this has NOTHING to do whatsoever with how I view the messages of Jesus, which I deeply honor and respect.

    Nor do I demean whatever good (depends how you define this, eh?) is coming out of their efforts across the world. But, I ask readers to recall that Jesus came to teach us how to heal, love and forgive using the SAME SPIRIT POWERS HE HAD...to set us spiritually FREE.

    He did not come to be separated from us as some sort of unreachable "Lord" that we are supposed to grovel before. In his time, he came against the very same type of religious organization of money and power that the Pharisees represented...and they had him killed.

    I have no doubt that were Jesus to come into the world right now, he would be throwing the money-changers and vendors out of the Catholic Church just as vehemently as before. And the "Church" would come against Him in the same way today.

    (Added 11/12) Two other points are worthy of consideration. First, many Shamans, myself included, feel Jesus was essentially a Shaman himself. The ability to transfigure (shape-shift), alter matter (water to wine), perform telekenesis (walking on water), and of course turning on the "healing switch" in others, all indicate a very powerful spirit/mind connection that most Shamans aim for but never achieve.

    Also, Shamans typically do not set up organized cults centered around themselves. I feel when Jesus told Peter he was the "rock"? upon which Jesus's "church" would be built, he was not referring to his future church as an organized religion, as we have now, but as a collection of "Jesus-Shamans" walking the world casting out dark energies and inducing healing, as the Apostles did after Jesus's death.

    I always felt it was strange that Jesus was so contrary to the Jewish Pharisees and their dictatorial rule, yet then turned around and supposedly authorized his followers to build a structure just like it.

    The second point concerns the Gnostic Gospels, which were all but destroyed several centuries after Jesus's death. We are truly fortunate to have found one of the last surviving copies of these in the 1940s. They were summarily thrown out of the New Testament when the latter was put together in the 4th century, because they supposedly were not "lining up" correctly philosophically and factually.

    In other words, revisionist history rearing its ugly head again to serve the power-seekers and money-men. I know from journeys that women were priests in the first few centuries in the Christian discipline...it was only in the 4th century that it was decided they should be subservient. Truly a bad shift away from the sacred balance of male/female that the Prime Creator was seeking. (End of added).

    The purpose of ANY spiritual discipline is to establish a real and personal connection to the spirit world, to the Prime Creator and the myriad of spirit helpers around it, and to use the self-knowing and total lack of fear thus attained to bring light, healing and understanding into the world.

    We are meant to be very powerful spiritually, not to go humble ourselves for an hour a week and then go back into the world to continue our bad habits. If the organized religions were truly doing their jobs, they would be teaching people to be spiritually INdependent. The message was "go forth and multiply", not "go forth and congregate."

    That is, make COPIES of Jesus, BECOME Jesus, not a group of underlings OF Jesus.

    I have met Jesus on several spirit journeys for others. He is real, and a powerful and calm Spirit, and he does indeed help those who honestly connect to him. I am pro-Jesus to the max! (In Fact, I venerate ALL the wonderful lover-healers who have made their mark in spirit history, regardless of "affiliation").

    I am not anti-Catholic as long as the experience leads people to expand their consciousness and spirit selves, as it once did for me, and to become free forces for good. But if people simply accept the doctrine and the ritual as all there is, and never question what is said or realize that different biblical translations can change the meanings profoundly, and just go once a week because that's the way everyone else does it...and therefore never get to know their true spirit selves and powers...then I am afraid I can be seen as "anti-Catholic" to quite a degree...but not to people who ARE Cathoilcs, of course! :)



    BLOG: Are there "Reptilians" on Earth?



    Lately I have been watching a lot of Videos on both YouTube and his own site by David Icke. David is originally from Britain, and after having a spiritual conversion in the early 90s, he set out to alert people to the coming danger from the so-described "Orwellian New World Order".

    He has written many books and given innumerable public lectures on this subject. Once considered the laughing stock of England for his early appearances after his conversion, increasing numbers are no longer laughing.

    Among his more "outlandish" claims are: that there are Reptilian beings from another dimension who are in a vibrational state that we cannot detect with our limited senses, who are nonetheless wreaking havoc on us and leading down this path to defeat of the individual consciousness, and enslavement in a world order dominated by humans who are controlled by the Reptilians; and, that these people still involve themselves in dark arts and blood rituals, and among those people are the current royal family of Great Britain.

    Most of us in the west would automatically dismiss this as sheer lunacy. But let me add my perspective, as Shaman, to this. When I first heard of the concept of other-dimensional reptilian beings (keep in mind that we all have a "reptilian" portion of our brains from way back when, where empathy is non-existent, and survival at all costs is the rule of this tiny lump of brain matter), I was struck immediately by an experience I had late last year.

    I had been taking lots of photos, searching for Spirit Orbs, and one morning I got a very strange one indeed. You can see these shots on my MySpace photo page, numbers 25 and 26. When you look at the close-up, you will clearly see a bulbous head with two red eyes which I immediately took to be a snake head. Events soon led me to journey into the Spirit World to see what had caused this. Here are the results of my journey:

    This all really began the Saturday night of Nov 10, while my Wife and I and two dear neighbors were sitting at the dining room table, playing dominoes. All the windows behind me were sealed for winter...so no leaks were present. We were about halfway through our series of games when I suddenly felt a very distinct cool draft flow across my neck and head from behind. I asked about it, as no-one else had felt it. I even went so far as to check downstairs to see if my son had opened the back door to let out some heat. He hadn't. So I thought nothing more of it.

    But as I was downstairs brushing my teeth for bed a couple of hours later, again in an area with no possibility for drafts, a very distinct cold blast moved across the back of my bare legs (I was in sleeping shorts). This time I really thought about it, knowing it was more than just coincidence, and rapidly came to the conclusion that I had, for the first time, felt a ghost going by.

    People who have claimed to have encountered ghosts often speak of feeling such cold spots in the air. I immediately took this to mean that one or more Spirits was really anxious for me to come into the Spirit World, as something important had to be up. This was the first time I had ever been "requested" like this, so it had to be a matter of urgency.

    Prior to this, on a hunch based on a lengthy chat I had had with Janet the night before, I had taken my camera out the Thursday morning before and took a few flash shots to see if any Spirit Orbs were about. I was not surprised to find one in the first shot, a portion of which is inserted below. What DID surprise me was the size and shape of this orb. It had a bulbous Head and seemed to have two wide spread eyes and some sort of neck.

    I got chills that such a well-defined Orb was present. I took another shot about a minute later, and while the "head orb" had shrunk, there were three other, normal orbs about, and so it was obvious something in the Spirit World was up. I figured it had to do with Janet, but the events of Saturday evening, as delineated above, got me to thinking that something else was up.

    So that same night, as I was going to sleep, I decided to take a mini-Journey just to see if something might turn up. I actually split the experience into two parts. I did a quick read first, then woke up later that same night and realized I had to act immediately, again using a virtual candle, tools, etc. while lying in bed so as not to awaken Janet.

    In part 1, I found myself in space, and saw a large snake moving toward me from a circular dimension-portal, that is, a doorway to another time and place not associated with our universe. I stood aside and saw this snake approach the earth. The snake's head was bigger than the earth, and as it drew near it opened its mouth, which was large enough to swallow the whole planet.

    But instead of doing that, it exhaled a blue Gas that surrounded the entire planet like an atmosphere. I was not sure what it was doing at first, but then saw that it was pouring thousands of smaller snakes onto the earth, and these were infesting the rivers all across the globe.

    It was THEN that it suddenly struck me that the head orb pictured was actually that of a snake, that we had a river very near us, and that THIS was the emergency I had been alerted to by the drafts of cold air. One of these snakes was HERE. I knew I would need to journey to help fight it.

    At first I fell back asleep, deciding it could wait. But for some reason I awoke an hour or so later and realized this had to be done NOW. I opened Sacred Space as mentioned above and began my Journey. As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself standing at a white curtain of spirit energy, and I instantly decided to go through it.

    I was now in a large auditorium full of journeying shamans. I looked up at the stage and saw the meeting moderator as a brilliant orb of bright white light, shining like the sun, with hints of arms, legs and a head. As I went to find a seat near the back, the moderator mentioned me, saying he "welcomes Four Hawks..." Then, as another shaman came in through the back, the moderator welcomed "Silly Crow."

    Apparently we were the last two to be called, for the moderator then addressed the assembly, saying that we must all get together to take on the invading snake. We all went back into space and faced the snake. I sensed it was of a lower intelligence, and was not really aware of the havoc it was about to cause on Earth.

    Again I thought of the little snakes moving up our rivers, and how the pic i took shows the face of a snake...apparently the snakes were here in search of energy, and were to take in much of the world's "Chi". So we all used our thought-creative processes to create golden ball of mana, as big as Earth, and away from it. All the snakes then left the earth and consumed the mana ball.

    We then showed the parent snake how to create mana for itself, and watched as it formed a small ball before it and swallowed it. Satisfied, it withdrew back into the portal it had come from. We shamans then ensured the hole was closed.

    The Scene then shifted and I saw a middle-aged woman with black hair, smiling as I placed my hands on her head in order to heal her. This may have been the spirit of Mother Earth? I was then back in the auditorium, where the moderator gave us each a purple "figure 8" of spirit energy to wear always as a "bow tie."

    I took this as a high honor, and have often thought of the energy it gives me, especially in the throat/base of the brain chakra areas.

    As you have read, this was indeed an Invasion of our world by Reptiles from another dimension. While these obviously were less threatening, in that they did not take over humans yet, it shows THAT THE CONCEPT OF OTHER-DIMENSIONAL REPTILIAN BEINGS IS NOT A CRAZY NOTION! They exist in a vibrational state beyond our ability to "see"...but that does not mean they do not exist.

    As far as blood rituals being practiced to this day by "Illuminati Families", I asked my pendulum a simple yes/no on this one...and got a yes. I leave it to you to accept or reject the evidence I present to you here.

    11/16/08 Update: The following is excerpted from a journey I did for a friend's brother in California back in early 2005. The brother has been living with a wife who has been mercilessly cruel and uncaring to him. They are finally divorcing now.

    But it suddenly struck me a few days ago that when I performed this journey for the two over three years ago, I found a huge spirit snake wrapped around their house, their spirit vitality drained. It took me this long to understand the full dimension of this: this to me is a classic example of how a reptilian presence can undermine human beings, in this case to the max:

    "We flew over the Grand Canyon and on into California in a matter of seconds. We landed in a tree next to the house, which appeared to me to be single story with a red, shingled/clay tablet roof. I did not see the whole structure, though, so I cannot be sure of its actual footprint and size.

    I saw the brother slumped on a couch watching TV. His wife was doing something, but I can no longer translate my post-Journey scribble. It reads like "eslinder" but I'm not sure what it was/is supposed to say. I spotted a huge black snake encompassing the entire house, coiled around it and within it. I also noticed both people's Auras.

    The brother's was almost all gray with just hints of color here and there. The wife's was very dark gray to black and totally without color. Both are therefore almost totally shut down spiritually. I handed the husband a copy of my healing rainbow energy feather, but he did not react as I put it in his hand. It had no effect."

    Based on the three years of psychological and spiritual abuse that followed, I am convinced the wife was, or was transformed into, a Reptilian.



    BLOG: Pyramids and other levitational wonders:



    On Page 95 of Joan Parisi Wilcox's excellent book, Masters of the Living Energy - The Mystical World of of Q'ero of Peru, she discusses the myth of Inkari, the first Inka, the founder of the Inkan Empire. On that page comes the startling description of Inkari's ability to build large stone structures. Inkari was able to "herd" rocks and stones of massive size with a simple verbal command.

    Joan goes on to say that Legend tells that Inkari and his immediate successors were able to "sing" the stones up and into place. In other words, they were using the power of their minds to counteract gravity, perhaps attuned to a certain vibrational sound that negates gravitational pulls. (As an aside, in a recent journey to visit with the Earth Soul of Nicola Tesla, I discovered that he likewise knew one could counteract gravity using certain combinations of frequencies.)

    So imagine my surprise when re-reading the pages mentioned above when I discovered that a recent journey of mine concerning the building of the Giza and other pyramids suddenly struck a huge chord (no pun intended). Below is that journey, and it confirms the Incan Legend of immense stone levitation:

    As I entered the Spirit World, I saw myself as the golden Hawk, flying headlong toward the Giza Pyramids. I have been reading a ton about these and how old are they really, and who really built them. It has been conjectured by some knowledgeable people that they are over 10,000 Years old and built by a prior, highly skilled civilization the ancient Egyptians later referred to as Gods.

    I flew right into the entrance to and then up the so-called Queen's Shaft of the Great Pyramid, stopping at the metal door that was found there several decades ago. I was able to sneak around to the other side, and saw a miniscule carved Hawk at its base. I thought: was I actually there in a past life when this was put in?

    Did I have something to do with that door? I then was outside and saw the "Gods" actually placing the 20-ton and heavier blocks in place. They did indeed, as has been surmised, use levitation to do this...there were no slaves, no workers. I then saw that most of these beings were actually from another dimension!

    They were using energy connections to their own dimension and their minds. As they stood there, there were translucent and had a narrow layer of light surrounding them in a shimmering Halo I thought to myself, no wonder there is no trace of these people!

    I was then shown that the suspected radical shift in the entire Earth's surface, which moved Antarctica down to the South pole and wreaked deadly havoc on much of life on the planet when it occurred, was caused by a large planetoid that passed close by the Earth on its bee-line into the Sun.

    I got a Sense that this object may also have been partially or fully originated in this other dimension, which is why there was little to no warning. This may also be why we will not see the next one coming, if indeed the Mayan and Hopi Prophesies are correct that a major event is coming to Earth soon.

    I then found myself moving up onto the Dalha mirror, with my ten Spirits in a circle around it. They showed to me that I must fashion or buy three small pyramids to place on my altar to try to pray this next catastrophe away. Just beyond the mirror, I was shown a new ritual site built for me. It had three deep mahogany steps leading up to a square platform.

    In the center was a stone slab for me to lie on. The walls were made of white rose petals kept together by spider web lines. I opened the curtain of this shelter to see the entire landscape covered in uplifted dirt and small fires, a result of the catastrophic event mentioned above. But I and my immediate family were now safe inside.

    In the final scene, I was shown that we might very well escape this destruction by passing into the other dimension mentioned above, and it occurred to me that in so doing, we might very well become the Gods or whatever people are there, just as had occurred on the Giza Plateau thousands of years ago! A grand Irony, indeed. That was the end of the useful imagery.



    BLOG: Consciousness Shift Revealed in Part:



    I very recently was shown an amazing interplay of inter-dimensional energies that have been wreaking havoc with our human relationships, as well as contributing to global warming, and perhaps even earthquakes. Just as beings from other dimensions can and do visit us, often with deleterious results, we have a massive "dark" star, in a dimension vibrating very close to our own, and very near our solar system, that is wreaking havoc with us.

    The bad news, though...we have 6 more of these other-dimensional stars heading our way. It is THIS that we also have to survive in the coming period of consciousness shifting. Here is the journey I took:

    10/31/08: A journey taken at my Helpers' request to see what new information they had for me. Lately I have been having a series of such instructions.

    As I entered the Spirit World, I met with my 10 Dalha spirits on their sacred mirror. The mirror began spinning very rapidly beneath our feet as we stood on it...but soon we were all spinning on the now-still mirror. As we and the mirror spun faster and faster, the area around us was blue. We quickly spiraled into a new dimension, an apparent nod to the whirling dervishes who likewise spin rapidly in place to achieve an altered state of consciousness.

    As we moved into the new dimension, we were still on the Earth and among some humans...but everything appeared non-solid in this version of our reality...as if made up of a collection of innumerable bits of very dry paper. It reminded me a bit of objects made of bits of colored issue aper. I then saw firings of tiny bits of energy moving between various bits of the "paper" in one of the humans.

    We were then lifted into space, and there I saw it: a huge, dark-energy star very near the solar system and riding along with it. Because it is in a different dimension, our science has no Idea that it is there. However, the emanations from this star are having a very real and draining effect on humanity.

    They are passing through our electrical connections of our bodies, causing us to be a lot less aware, more sluggish, more focused on the physical than the spiritual. Hence, the wars and selfishness and economic taking are all a result of this degradation. Our sun, as a result of this presence, is wiggling, shuddering along through space. We cannot measure or feel this weird vibration in our paths since the sun and all the planets are wiggling at the same time in the distortion of space-time.


    However, I was told that this shuddering is helping cause the warming of all the planets, including ours, as detected recently by spacecraft. Then, the Dalha asked me to look behind me.

    There, I saw 6 more dark stars heading toward us. I thought to myself, "Omigod! How do we stop this!?" The Dalha answered, "We don't." Instead, we all pulled a thin, white sheet of energy all across the Earth in our dimension, wrapping it like a ball being wrapped with foil. "This will help protect humans and allow those who can reach a heightened consciousness a level of protection from the approaching 6 stars. You and other spiritualists have to survive this visit."

    We then pointed a narrow, long cone of red light from our dimension at the dark star from the base of the mirror. I was told that this entity reads the red light as a weird energy since it is from another dimension. We pointed cones of different colors at the other stars. These cones of light will only help weaken these stars as bit, but it will help a little.

    The Dalha then tied me into all the other "white" shamans praying for the Earth to survive the coming "other-dimensional" storm. My daily prayers will now be permanently tied into theirs, adding to the white-energy shield now covering over the Earth. The Dalha also reminded me to continue my daily practice of expanding my own white light outward to engulf as much of the Earth as possible.

    We then settled back into our dimension. We passed around a peace pipe. As I took my puff, a bright green-glowing worm emerged from the bowl, walked along the stem, and took its own puff! It then took a place on my shoulder, and I was told this is a new Spirit Helper, a gift from Mother Earth! It will always be with me, and strengthen my connection in my prayers for the earth.

    As remarkable and unlikely as this scenario sounds, and as it is impossible for current science to verify this, it is vital we take this look into our immediate environment seriously. Expand your own light...realize some of your reactions are not just learned behavior, but disruptions caused by a foreign energy. I welcome your comments.

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